<Before surgery>

Even before the surgery, I wasn't the type of person who was told I was ugly. 
However, I thought that if I could fix my chin and the teasing I received from my friends during my sensitive period from school to adolescence, I would be satisfied with my appearance by my standards.
Double-jaw surgery is a really scary surgery. It made me constantly worry, and I was afraid of someone secretly taking pictures and was trying to hide my profile. 
I was so sad that I kept trying to hide my complex through Photoshop, so I decided to get double jaw surgery. I also wanted a shorter lower jaw, so I decided to get square jaw and front chin surgery! 

<Reason for hospital selection>
I was looking for videos on double jaw surgery on YouTube, and there was a review that was exactly what I wanted, so I searched for hospital facilities, patient uniforms, etc. and came to know about Oral Maxillofacial Surgery. 
I felt that double jaw surgery was a really big surgery for me, and as it was an important surgery, I tried to visit more hospitals, but after learning about Y and going to this hospital for my first consultation,
Consultation appointments at other hospitals have become meaningless to me. The confident words and experience of the director, and the fact that he does not force surgery on unnecessary areas, 
The fact that the guardian could watch the surgery in real time on CCTV, the clean hospitalization room, and the presence of an anesthesiologist on staff were all factors that made me decide on this hospital.
In particular, the reliability and confidence of Dr. Seok-jae Lee's surgery was clearly felt by the fact that my guardians could watch my surgery in real time through CCTV, and I think this was the biggest reason. 
 

<Surgery day>
It was really scary and heartbreaking, but I pretended to be okay because my worried parents were with me.
I wondered if I would ever wake up, and even the day before surgery, I was worried enough to leave a video of my last words on my phone.
I arrived at the hospital with my parents, met with the director, talked to them, was assigned a hospital room, gargled, and waited. They told me to come into the operating room, and I entered with heavy steps like entering the gates of hell. 
When I saw the operating room, I was so nervous that I whined at the nurses a little. There was an injection going into my arm that was a bit painful, but I thought it was just an injection, but it turned out to be an anesthetic injection. 
I couldn't even count and fell asleep. 
I think the surgery started around 10 and ended around 2:30. As soon as I opened my eyes, my first thought was "I'm alive..." But a second later, I wanted to die again. 
The director also said that the first day was very difficult, and I saw many reviews of double jaw surgery, but it was beyond my imagination... It may have been because I am very sensitive and feel pain easily, but...
There was pain in my face, the hose was connected all over the place, I was really tired and sleepy, and I wanted to sleep to forget about all the hardships, but the anesthetic gas had to escape.
I can't fall asleep, so it's really, really hard for my parents to wake me up even if I close my eyes for just 5 seconds... I think I was glaring at my mom a lot.
They really paid attention to even the smallest details, and I was having a hard time early in the morning, so I rang the bell several times, and they came right away every time. 
I couldn't say it properly, but I was really grateful.


<Day 2>
In the morning, I took out the urine line and the director removed the line. I also received swelling treatment with something like a laser.
The second day was just as difficult, but it was better than the previous day... I started gargling from the second day. 
They also told me that I should drink New Care, but I hated gargling because it was so bitter.
At first, New Care was good because it was sweet, but as time went on, it became too bitter and the drugs being administered by injection made me feel sick. 
I could barely eat . The director came and looked at me more often than I thought. I was a bit distracted, but I remember it... 
I really felt like I woke up once an hour  in the hospital. It was really hard. While I was hospitalized, I thought I knew why I was hospitalized for 3 days and 2 nights... 
On that day, I really  didn't have the energy to look at my phone, so I couldn't hear from anyone, including my boyfriend, but on the second day, I finally turned on my phone and checked...
I don't think I even saw that for long.  It was so hard to swallow my saliva that I kept spitting it out, so I think I came out with a headache after having to use hospital tissues for 3 days... I'm sorry.
The whole hospital room was really full of toilet paper. They told me to go around the hospital, and I did go around a few times , but I didn't go very often because I was afraid of surprising the patients outside. 

<Discharge day 3>
My parents said they would come pick me up around 10 o'clock, so I was preparing to be discharged. I saw the director for the last time, came out to the hospital, got a prescription for medication, and was discharged. 
I thought it would be best to stay in the hospital, so I wanted to stay there longer, but it was so good when I got out. 
Haha Qㅠㅠ When I arrived home, my parents took great care of me, so I was preparing to recover well at home. 
I bought 30 New Care products before the surgery, but New Care was actually a lot stronger than I thought, so I didn't even touch it... 
But I had lost so much weight and had so little energy that I thought I was going to starve to death, so I tried black bean flavor. I drank about half a glass. 
Other than New Care, Pocari was really easy to drink, so my parents bought about 5 large bottles and I continued to drink it. I was prescribed it as a pill. 
The pills were easy for me to swallow, but water was a bit bitter, so I drank Pocari and Kkultteokkkultteok. I thought I would buy it when I got home. ㅠㅠㅠ 
But it was still a difficult third day. New Care was so bad for me that I drank banana milk. The banana milk was really delicious. I survived on banana milk...


<Day 4 to Day 9>
The swelling was really at its peak during this time.. When I sent the picture to my friends, they said it looked like bread dough rolled up..
When I looked in the mirror, it really looked that way, so I wasn't hurt. I also had countless crazy thoughts about what I would do if the swelling didn't go away.
I hated looking in the mirror Suddenly, a big, red bruise appeared on my neck, making me look like a really broken person haha.
And the phlegm was bothering me so much ... Since I opened my mouth, my throat was dry and the phlegm was dry and stuck to the roof of my mouth, and it was really hard. 
But it was fun to see my changed profile... I really took a lot of pictures of my profile in my photo album haha, that made me happy. 


<Week 1 hospital treatment>
My mother drove me to the hospital and I was able to see the director! I went to the hospital on the 6th day for some reason.
That was when the swelling was at its peak... It was very difficult for the director, right? When he asked me, all my sadness came out and I burst into tears...
I thought it was funny to see him crying on the dental chair with a face like bread dough, but the director also thought it was funny.
He smiled... He comforted me by saying that the hardship was almost over, that it was a very difficult surgery, and that things would get better soon...
I think it was a moment that really gave me a lot of strength. I received swelling care and disinfected my mouth, but it hurt... 
I think it was the first week of hospital treatment that gave me strength.

<Day 10~14>
From the 10th day onwards, the swelling started to go down day by day like a ghost. I really thought I was going to die if things continued like this.
My mother made beef and seaweed soup with white porridge, so I skipped out the ingredients and ate the white porridge in the soup.
But I don't know if it's because of this, but the swelling is going down like a ghost every day!!
I guess I will recover after eating something.....
My mother made seaweed soup and beef radish soup, and I've been eating it three times a day for 5 days now, along with white porridge. I really recommend it.
I didn't get sick of it and the radish was very soft so it was  easy to mash it with my tongue. The hospital told me not to eat anything that had been seasoned too hard, but I felt like I was going to die so I touched the food...
However, I gargle with water every time I eat, brush my teeth, and even use a water pick! Actually, I think the swelling goes down quickly because I eat well.  
I'm doing well, playing games at home and taking walks sometimes. However, since I eat one bowl of cooked rice with white porridge and share it with three meals a day, I don't seem to gain any more weight at 47kg.. haha.
If you look at my face, I'm 65 kg but I'm losing weight day by day. 

<2nd week hospital treatment>
I decided that it was impossible to go to Seoul alone just yet, so my father took me there..! The day I got rid of the stitches I was really dreading... 
I asked the director to let me go gently, and he said he understood, but no one could stop the pain. To relieve the pain, I pressed down on the other hand with my fingernails...
I cried and screamed, but I was really sorry... I really felt like I was dying when I did the front and center gum area.
But it was over quickly. After removing the stitches, all that was left were the fingernail marks on my hands... But I felt good because I thought the pain was really over!!
From the 3rd week onwards, they said they don't mind spicy food or fatty food, so I'm planning on eating korean stew soup and ramen.
It was painful to remove the stitches, but I felt relieved after doing it!!

These days, I am spending a recovery period at home like an unemployed person. 
Yesterday, I went out to the city with my boyfriend and ate risotto and had a short but enjoyable date. Other than not being able to eat other meat or normal food, nothing is really difficult right now. 
I want to recover quickly and eat pork belly, bibimbap, and kimbap as time goes by... I hope time passes quickly 
I really, really, just have to endure the first week, and time will pass. I really want to jump by the 5th day, and I didn't have an ugly face to begin with.
I was greedy and regretted it, but in the end, that time passed. I'm really satisfied now. I'm just looking forward to the time passing quickly, the swelling going down, and eating well.
It must be difficult for those in the early stages of surgery, but I hope you can hold on for a while.


<2nd month>
It’s finally been 54 days since my double jaw surgery!!
Each day that seemed like it would never last passed by, and now it's the 54th day.. haha 
It was really hard at first, but as time goes by, the number of things I can eat and do increases, and now I think I'm eating everything I can except for things like hard pickled radish and thick pork belly haha.
It's not complete yet, though...!
After a month, I visited the hospital and started correction.
I think orthodontic treatment is more mentally difficult than surgery...ㅠ I also cut down on food.
The inside of my mouth, which was already swollen from the surgery, is getting even more swollen because of the braces... 
Still, my occlusion is getting better and I am happy whenever I can chew food smoothly. I want to get my braces off as soon as possible... Now that I am out of the wafer hell, the orthodontic hell... 
Still, after more than a month, it is very livable. The reactions from those around me are so good, and I'm embarrassed to hear so many people tell me that I look prettier wherever I go... 
I feel it myself, but what I feel most is that my face has become smaller!! 
Right now, there is still some swelling and my face looks plump, but compared to the pictures taken in the beginning, the swelling is definitely going down. 
I am very satisfied
I visited for proofreading, met with the director for the last time, and then met with the orthodontist to get the proofreading done! 
But the good thing is that WHY Dental Clinic is located next to a dental clinic and a hospital, so it's convenient overall and I don't have to worry about it.
The director who performed the surgery and the director who performed the correction are different, but the director is the same and takes care of everything in between, so it's very convenient!
I was really nervous because I was always really scared of the dentist, but fortunately, he kindly told me what kind of treatment he was going to give me during each treatment, so I felt at ease.
The color of the braces was transparent and pretty, so that was good.
Also, the nurse taught me in detail how to brush my teeth, and the hospital gave me everything from orthodontic toothbrushes, regular toothbrushes, interdental brushes, and silicone wax, so I am taking good care of it!!
There are only things left to improve in the future, so even though I can't eat and live like a normal person right now, I'm gaining strength haha.
I hope it’s been a year for me as soon as possible!!